and so it goes...

some days, i'm a hot mess. some days, i've got it going on. this is a chronicle of my messy life. enjoy.

xo,

katie
November 23

i do declare

im spreading the word, to my sweet blogiverse, that there will be lots of change for this katie-lady in the near-ish future. i need to spend some time focusing on me and what i want out of this life.

What I want: I want to enjoy and love my job. i want to work with children in a creative and inspiring environement. i want to help people and be apart of society. i want to continue to develop my baking and cooking skills. i want to start taking more pictures. i want to not care about failing/being perfect. i want to do yoga 2-3 times a week. i want to loose weight while keeping my lady-like curves. i want be in love without thinking about what’s next. i want to let go and live life. i want to TRAVEL. i want not worry about money and the allocation of what little i have. i want to embrace myself, my goofiness, my tendency to laugh at inappropriate things, my ability to find beauty in people and places. i want to become the world-observer that i know i am. i want to be able to travel ALONE without being fearful of being by myself! i want to trust my life’s path…i want the patience of my boyfriend. i want to go to graduate school.

How I’m going to do it: i’m going to take myself out of my cozy comfort zone and get on with life. i’m going to live and love. it’s not going to be easy and it’s not going to be without failures. but, i’m going to do it damn-it.

more to come with this…

November 20
it’s a strange moment when you realize how vulnerable you really are when you’re in love. how that one person how damage you with four little words, how their heartbeats determine your happiness—so much of you is invested in them. when i first realized it i noticed that i backed off completely. the idea of not having control over your own heart is an unsettling thought but to truly love someone you have to let go. let go of the control of your heart, let go of your sanity a little and trust that they will not damage you. in my mind, this is easier said than done. pirata:libraryland: unscrewthestars: mariasoyyo: (via precipice)

it’s a strange moment when you realize how vulnerable you really are when you’re in love. how that one person how damage you with four little words, how their heartbeats determine your happiness—so much of you is invested in them. when i first realized it i noticed that i backed off completely. the idea of not having control over your own heart is an unsettling thought but to truly love someone you have to let go. let go of the control of your heart, let go of your sanity a little and trust that they will not damage you. in my mind, this is easier said than done.

pirata:libraryland: unscrewthestars: mariasoyyo: (via precipice)

November 19
kari-shma:© Aaron Snider (via Beauty in Everything - Photography)

kari-shma:© Aaron Snider (via Beauty in Everything - Photography)

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The Peace of Wild Things

When despair for the world grows in me
and I wake in the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting with their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.

— Wendell Berry

***my friend sent this to me and it think its beautiful***

November 18
robot-heart:leeshiebean:findlilyhere:thebumblebees: fuckyeahhappy: elephantine: fuckingobscenity: youaresomethingbeautiful: getyourown: scarletttlady: godzillas: drlovebite: limejello: dorkydamaris

robot-heart:leeshiebean:findlilyhere:thebumblebees: fuckyeahhappy: elephantine: fuckingobscenity: youaresomethingbeautiful: getyourown: scarletttlady: godzillas: drlovebite: limejello: dorkydamaris

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I'm in a God-awful mood today

let’s start with the fact that im on the rag. UGH. if bleeding for 5-7 days isn’t enough, all of my projects are ablaze with chaos. i just want to slap people and tell them that their misplanning isn’t my emergency. for fuck sake, just do your job.

November 17

keyboard cat meets the shining.

November 12
confectionology: Martha Stewart stricks again! I am in love with these Oatmeal Applesauce cookies. The are incredibly easy to make and only require one bowl (instead of the normal two i.e. wet ingredients and dry ingredients). I fully recommend any newbie to try out these cookies. You will impress yourself and everyone around you! What you’ll need: -1 1/4 c. flour -1 c. brown sugar - 1/2 c. granulated sugar - 1/2 stick unsalted butter -1 large egg -1/2 c. apple sauce—the recipe calls for old fashion applesauce but you can use whatever you have on hand -1 1/2 c. old-fashion oats (not the quick cooking kind) -1/2 ts baking soda -1/4 ts baking powder (they are different!) -salt—just a pinch -1 cup golden raisins—they have a much more mild taste when compared to regular raisins and I would suggest you do not substitute For glaze: ** I noticed that this recipe makes WAY TOO much glaze, so if you don’t have enough confectionary sugar/maple syrup—you need not fret. Just add enough of both to make it “glue like” ** -1 3/4 c. confectionary sugar -3 TB maple syrup -3 TB water What equipment you’ll need: -your hand mixer -large mixing bowl -baking sheet -parchment paper or Silpat -wire rack -your handy scooper (or two spoons if you don’t have one yet!) What you’ll do: 1) Preheat oven to 350 2) Mix melted butter and sugars with hand mixer until it appears “sand like” 3) Add egg and applesauce and mix (again, with your handy hand mixer) for 2-3 minutes. The batter will look wet. 4) Into same bowl mix oats, flour, baking soda, baking powder and salt. 5) Lastly, mix in raisins! And BAM—you have cookie dough. What what! Makin’ Me Glaze: 1) Whisk confectionary sugar, maple syrup and water together and voila! You’re done. Baking Instructions: 1) Using scoop (or spoons) drop 1” balls onto baking sheet (must be lined with Silpat or parchment paper). Space those bad boys 2” apart. 2) Bake for 6-8 mins and then rotate baking sheet in oven and bake for another 6-8 mins until golden around the edges.  *Rotating the baking sheet helps the cookies bake more evenly** 3) Transfer cookies to wire rack (be sure to line the rack with parchment paper!) 4) Let those delicious cookies cool completely and then drizzle with glaze. *I use a fork to drizzle, real fancy right?* I promise you will love these cookies as much as I do. They were a hit at my last family reunion and they last about 4 days when in an air-tight container. Enjoy! Your Confectionologist

confectionology:

Martha Stewart stricks again! I am in love with these Oatmeal Applesauce cookies. The are incredibly easy to make and only require one bowl (instead of the normal two i.e. wet ingredients and dry ingredients). I fully recommend any newbie to try out these cookies. You will impress yourself and everyone around you!

What you’ll need:

-1 1/4 c. flour

-1 c. brown sugar

- 1/2 c. granulated sugar

- 1/2 stick unsalted butter

-1 large egg

-1/2 c. apple sauce—the recipe calls for old fashion applesauce but you can use whatever you have on hand

-1 1/2 c. old-fashion oats (not the quick cooking kind)

-1/2 ts baking soda

-1/4 ts baking powder (they are different!)

-salt—just a pinch

-1 cup golden raisins—they have a much more mild taste when compared to regular raisins and I would suggest you do not substitute

For glaze:

** I noticed that this recipe makes WAY TOO much glaze, so if you don’t have enough confectionary sugar/maple syrup—you need not fret. Just add enough of both to make it “glue like” **

-1 3/4 c. confectionary sugar

-3 TB maple syrup

-3 TB water

What equipment you’ll need:

-your hand mixer

-large mixing bowl

-baking sheet

-parchment paper or Silpat

-wire rack

-your handy scooper (or two spoons if you don’t have one yet!)

What you’ll do:

1) Preheat oven to 350

2) Mix melted butter and sugars with hand mixer until it appears “sand like”

3) Add egg and applesauce and mix (again, with your handy hand mixer) for 2-3 minutes. The batter will look wet.

4) Into same bowl mix oats, flour, baking soda, baking powder and salt.

5) Lastly, mix in raisins! And BAM—you have cookie dough. What what!

Makin’ Me Glaze:

1) Whisk confectionary sugar, maple syrup and water together and voila! You’re done.

Baking Instructions:

1) Using scoop (or spoons) drop 1” balls onto baking sheet (must be lined with Silpat or parchment paper). Space those bad boys 2” apart.

2) Bake for 6-8 mins and then rotate baking sheet in oven and bake for another 6-8 mins until golden around the edges. 

*Rotating the baking sheet helps the cookies bake more evenly**

3) Transfer cookies to wire rack (be sure to line the rack with parchment paper!)

4) Let those delicious cookies cool completely and then drizzle with glaze.

*I use a fork to drizzle, real fancy right?*

I promise you will love these cookies as much as I do. They were a hit at my last family reunion and they last about 4 days when in an air-tight container.

Enjoy!

Your Confectionologist

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Christopher Walken performs Lady Gaga’s Pokerface (via frangry)

November 11

i know i see him all the time

but i miss my boyfriend when he’s away. he’s going to PA for a funeral and won’t be back till sunday. i’m really going to miss him for the next 5 days.